“Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked, he’s so mad but he won’t give up that easy, nope, he won’t have it, he knows…”
Eminem
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and ain’t it like a babe to rush the social media stage say ‘ta-da’ & carry on as tho his facet of the parade was even worth a single 'hurray’
truth be somewhere along the way, ego got laced w/ this scene of virtual celebration, & being blind deaf 'n dumb, took a while for the numb one to realize that the moonwalk he was learning on had him tripp’d — stumblin’ — steady falling — before ultimately unveiling the holes in his soul 2 squeeze
in summary, maturity released via capsules of Space by phases of Time unique to each & every Mind Heart Spirit…
unfortunately (?) this cat seems to have been napping longer than the rest of humanity, (or just ineffectively integrating the life-lessons of the day-by-day) always believing in the hustle, yet perhaps from a perspective dictated according to motives unclear
with that, now aiming to render sincerity @ 110%, hence new phase of training. not going to be EZ. fact: opposite, exactly — for while a new species of momentum in sprouting, the change has yet to blossom (true beauty = whole 'nother ballgame…)
that said, a recently fathomed step-stone of learning from which we’re to herein pivot —
the more one focus on the Matrix without, the more one lose touch w/ the Self within…
“Coming together is a beginning; keeping together is progress; working together is success.”
Henry Ford
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as never before saga continues w/ an ultimatum of self faced fathomed function’d unto some mantra of accordance to be featured via story here/now coming together
see babe,,, (sigh) been daytrippin’ (nighttrippin’ too) nah not how you’re thinkin’ but def str8 slipping round the clock from beta-version test-script o high-flying standards i’ve (unwittingly?) (unskillfully?) (prematurely?) precisely set for self & successfully smash-hitt’d into my face like cream-puff pie that gone pow (sound effects:) ‘y-owch’ / 'yum’
quite glum because of it
good news b work 2 do & since no having cake'n'mackin’ too, losing the turkish D. line drawn drawing guns & already being back 2 back w/ the doppelganger foe that been cliffhanging my soul, bout time to rep my stand pace face-off spin rounds that fire true in a once and for all kinda way (4 some reason seeing more clearly continuous-like now & into the 'how come’ that ever-since been behind the fall —
1. quest for self-perfection (aka denying fabric of finely balanced life) 2. fissures in the levy add up (self-esteem = fragile thing til suddenly CRUSH’D (stomp’d gusher b i)) 3. general life ∞ love confusion spun-out beyond control (direct result of street-living as the Wild Things do? perhaps boo)
any-hoo suddenly appears to me all 3 quite simply, the result of mind heart spirit, unaligned — a moral dilemma to crack skillet school like skrillex (anon, too) (tom. soon) til then working @ hyperloop-swinging a tight confine —
“A mountain never seems to have the need to speak — A look that shares, So many seek…”
RHCP
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that’s right — life ∞ love — something once shared so nearly forgot and tho we got lost caught a breath in between bud opened spread wings & relationship swing
“Ah get born, keep warm, short pants, romance, learn to dance…”
Bob Dylan
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alright my sandel ‘n sock rockin’ — beat-bo-boppin’ — headband — headphone — rag-noggin’ reppin’ younginz of Hell’s Kitchen —
time near 'rrived for blondyn to press up'n out these parts, & while w/out sage sayins / words of wisdom that could bless a youngin’ more precious than one’s Due Experience, this note O rhythmic his parting gift to you
stay true. starts there — 'n here — 'n now— give yo best to life ∞ love where intuition hint the opportunity t be @
along the path don’t let the struggle jam your mental. keep working @ that swagger to the best of your finesseful prowess — see y'allready got the stroll down to one flow. so improve the wave! trough the crest! toppermost of poppermost’s best! never forget — brotherz in it w/ each other — all @ the test — watch out for one another. keep the beef to a min. w/ a MAX — watch out for that sunglass’d woman intent on frontin’ — POLICE van right ahead! avoid the crime — take the time to put 'n keep the copper in mind so as to clearly define the law of the land by which you choose to navigate (don’t do in vain) (temptation watch/want/drain you) meanwhile keep that step from the sewer drains, 'n don’t advance another w/out being intent on passion to develop, purpose to discover, & beyond that… well…
blondyn still w/ way much to learn on yet… perhaps all in all just best to remember that chocolate no ask questions — chocolate gets
“I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul”
William Ernest Henley
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woke up 2:30 AM 45th street, Hudson Terrace aware that I have to come to a decision & fast
the question, simply —
stability? or onward
yet landing the answer has been a conundrum of some measure, w/ so many jigsaw facets of scintillating aspect that it be enough to make 1 marvel w/ exceeding marvel as to whether we be assembling big picture, indeed or just by “mendelian ordering” experiencing a touch too much the shining…
hear me dear —
“stability”
suggests continuing along w/ the state of “livelihood” as is @ present — that is, continuing along like a slumdog streetchild in hell’s kitchen, nyc scraping by by and by w/ all daily affairs incorporated
“onward…”
(?) however, would be to basically “go beyond” — (?) to pursue the life ∞ love via the wind — storm — (?) that at any given moment be Manhattan.
starting anew sound frash. and yet starting @ 0 (…) can really hammer the mind, heart, spirit to the test…
given we’ve reviewed the pros / cons like a Sherlock by XL mag-glass, it’d be rather fairly exact to state that neither “opportunity” presents itself as hunky-dory rosy-poesy but all in all it’s like Yoda once said:
“always in motion, is the future…”
is our effort + intent sincere? what are we after and how come or what for? be it apt to consider the rest of the life-changes that hath appeared in our midst? is to do the “right thing” to do that which be more “logically” safe + sound, or does 1 inspire the heart-beat onward bound for discovery?
